Recovery-More Surgery-Chemo

Well, it's been a while since I have blogged.  It's been two weeks since my Dr fixed my flat tire :) and I have also had one more round of chemo since then (2 total so far).   My first surgery (mastectomy) went really well!  Afterward I felt like I could get up and go shopping.

Oh...., but this last surgery (to fix my flat tire) I felt as though someone had run me over with a Mac truck and of course I tossed my cookies right after.  And I was really good about not drinking or eating anything the night before!!!!!  Oh and I get to wear those nice drains again!!!!!  Those are a lot of FUN!!!

 My surgery was about 3 hours long and I had also had one round of chemo about 2 weeks earlier and they said that might have something to do with why I did not do so well.  My family also made a new rule if you have to stay overnight someone is going to stay with you!

 I had a rough time during the night, I also heard it could have been from the anaesthesia, anyway to make a long story short, my nurse kept saying she was going to call my Dr to see if she could change my pain meds and that stressed me out even more cause its bad enough you feel like a pain to your nurses, but now I was getting ready to be a pain to my doctor (that I love) and the last thing I thought he needed was to have someone wake him with a stupid question!!!!!  By that point I was in tears and felt I had made my nurses upset with me with things like....when can I take my pain/nausea pill? is there a volume on this blood pressure machine?  I knew my nurses were busy, but when a new one came in I thought YEP....I've made them mad and they have had enough of me.....so of course i lost it with the TEARS!!!!  And I thought that nurses like for you to get up and go to the bathroom, just to get things going in your body? 

I thought this one was cute, but mine did not look like this!!!!

Nope not my nurses... If I said I had to go to the bathroom, they brought the toilet and put it right in the middle of the room (next to my bed) but it felt like the middle of the room!!!!!.....and  they waited till I was done!!!   I might as well have stood naked in the middle of the room cause that was how I felt!!!!  So I also thought I got the lazy nurses for the evening????  who knows, I blame the anesthesia!!!!
 

                               How do men can stand next to each other and go like its no big deal!

Two days after my surgery my hair started to come out in huge clumps. That picture only shows 1/4 of it. 
 I really thought I was going to get past this cause I have really thick hair!  Nope, that was not in Gods design.  So I had a little hair shaving party,... if that is what you want to call it.

This is what Bo Derek looks like with no make up! Lol :)

 I put a ton of braids in it because I was going to cut them off and give them to my nephew and nieces, since they thought it was so COOL that aunt Susie was going to lose her hair.  My sister and her husband came over, daughter and son were there and Kelley was there.  I had my glass of wine all ready and honestly when your sad the last thing you need is wine,  there is not a whole lot that can make you feel better, so that did not help much.  I let my son do the shaving since I have always done his hair, and usually we butt heads a little when it comes to his hair cause he always wants me to just buzz it off and I like to keep a little more than he wants. So I thought I would let him shave me.  So before my shave we had to cut off my Bo Derek braids, I would love to say I looked like her, (well back in the OLD, OLD , OLD days maybe I did) or thought I did :)   Maybe In my DREAMS!!!!



I could not do Locks of Love cause you have to have virgin hair!

 So this picture is for my son who did not know who Bo Derek is!   My son buzzed my hair into a Mohawk, of course I had to see what that would look like just for fun.  I would post them, but I just can't laugh at myself that much!!!! 

Maybe when my hair grows back and I toss enough cookies (just kidding) I will look like Bo!!!!  I know I will have to do it the old fashion way!!!!  Grrrr....nothing is ever easy!!!!

Ps. Only 2 more Chemo treatments...Yeah!  More on that later.

Tissue Expanders

Song-Into each life some rain must fall

Well, its 3:30 in the morning and I cant sleep.  I think because I'm on so much medication they must all be conflicting???


 The name of my blog...It ain't all about the Ta Ta's came up because I found out I had breast cancer, but I also wanted to let other people know, its about cancer,..yes, but its also about things I love and enjoy, like my family, crafting, cooking, decorating or cloud in the sky that looks like a rabbit (only my kids will get that.) And it not just about the Ta Ta's.


 BUT....today it is about the Ta Ta's!  

  After my breast cancer surgery my doctor put in both my breast something called Tissue Expander's, these are to slowly stretch your skin until you get implants.  Never in my life I thought I would get these, cause I never really thought about it?   Pretty much cause I gave up on me....(long story!)

So each week I go in to see my plastic surgeon and he gives me a fill of saline solution in the expander, but the last couple times I have been noticing that one breast seem to be getting bigger than the other.  I thought okay, as long in the end the final product...the new Ta Ta's look good.  Because this is all new to me!
 So the last time I went he filled one side with one syringe and the other with two because I told him one seemed bigger.  So this last week I look down on my chest and I would say,  yep I'm still lop sided, thinking something is just not right?




So I had my appointment today for a fill, and he said right away I must have a leak and usually this happens to about 1% of patients,  its possible the expander did not close like it should or its possible he may have poked it when he did the fill?


 First let me tell you how much respect I have for this doctor for being completely honest with me!  I love the fact that it could have been any of those things and he did not have too much pride/ego to say its possible he may have done it.


 He could have easily said these things just happen when you put something foreign in your body!!!

Was I disappointed to have another surgery before my final surgery?....yes.   Do I have any regrets on doing a mastectomy?  Absolutely not!  Do I still love my DOCTOR?.....even more so, because he was so honest with me!!!! 


Don't get me wrong this did bum me out earlier,  I was thinking this crap just follows me around! :(

So right now I'm getting over a cold and trying to stay positive, thinking that this just goes with the territory! 

 Okay done with the self pity...time to move on and put on my big girl panties and realize this too shall pass and tomorrow is a new day!!!!